stupid smokes are killing me.. but who gives a fug..
counting down to race day.. 2 more days..
no mood to work.. maybe i call in sick another day..
freaking zapping my energy away..
too much thinking and stressing myself out when i shouldnt
i am just wasting my time.. i have no life again..
time to step up and take life's new chanelleges..
freaking will want to leave the country now..
work in another country.. study or whatever..
leaving this planet full of sorrows and disappointments...
just freaking really want to run away from this reality
GO AWAY! I HAVE ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT THAT YOU HAVE WRITTEN IN THE BOOK OF LIFE!!!
JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE.. MY PATHS AND MY WILL ARE MINE ALONE!!!
WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WAS DOWN AND OUT... I TRIED SEEK YE BUT NO ANSWER?
IS THIS PATH THAT I AM GOING THRU A PART OF YOUR ULTIMATE PLAN? BULL!!
WHY CANT EVERYTHING BE AS NICE AS IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE... i cant take it anymore.. whatever i do is never right..
i have been blessed by disappointments time and time again..
from the time i was born i was never right..
nobody wants to listen to me and my thoughts..
i am so lonely.. i seek friends.. i need them..
i had a soulmate then i lost it..
where did i go wrong again?
So here's your holiday, hope you enjoy this time, you take it all away..
It was mine, so when your are dead and gone..
Hope you remember this night twenty years now lost,
its not right
