I'm prolly bored now. Havent been writing for ages.
The turns of events during the recent months has taken a toll on me.
Physically and mentally, almost close to a breakdown. Sigh!
Still adapting to work, the early mornings and late nights out. Not that I have been
partying and all but just hanging out at the little shop down at the basement
of a shopping complex. Relaxing and enjoying the company of fellow friends who
share a common interest in the hobby, life and of course girls. What else?
A friend of mine shared this with me just the other day while having coffee.
She mentioned that being alone for too long will lead to depression. I so fully
agree with her, that is why I cannot stay at home. I am lonely at home.
But then again I am lonely outside too, so what gives? Midlife crisis? Ha.. I wonder.
Sitting alone by the computer (that's what I do most of the time always now) often
set me thinking. I hate that, reason being I always think of the past and that's
depressing. Guessed I have change alot since then being the out-going, wild spirited
optimistic person I am. Now I see things in a negative way, always pessimistic,
sligthly reserved and am bitter. Funny how one event after another can drastically
change a person. (I am still quite full of rubbish, that'll never change! ha!)
Age is catching up. Gosh! I am nearing thirty and I have got zlich!
Besides a computer and the internet and some of the hard earned trophies,
I am zlich, without a career and a significant other. I have friends thou, some
good close ones and I treasure them always. Too many had came and gone.
That's normal. When you are of somebody, everybody flocks to you. When you
are of nobody, everybody flocks to nobody not even somebody. That's when
you know who are the true friends.
So here's your holiday, hope you enjoy this time, you take it all away..
It was mine, so when your are dead and gone..
Hope you remember this night twenty years now lost,
its not right
